Emily Dickinson

"Parting is all we know of heaven and all we need of hell."

Sunday, February 12, 2012

V-Day Blues

Here we go again!! Yup! Thanks to MANkind, I'm flyin' solo for Valentine's day yet another year. Gotta admit though that this year is waaay better than last year.  You know...heart no longer broken, no longer crying/moping around, no longer expecting anything to be better than it is. I'm thinking, maybe, my new neighbor will find it in his also solo heart to build us a bonfire to drink around. Birds of a feather, right?

Operation: Nobody likes a fatty (As Florida would put it) is going awesome. I'm already getting some positive attention lately. I've met my goal of losing 5% of my weight so now I'm just focusing on 10%.  Baby steps.  I'm a real sucker for hunger pains. I'd rather have the runs or vomit or something than be hungry (spoken like a true thicky thick girl).  I found ways of curbing that and now I realize that as I enter week 3, my pains are actually a lot less intense and a lot more spaced out across the day. Lemme tell ya, I never thought one of those smoothies or atkins drinks would hold me over but those things have turned into an awesome breakfast!! I know..it's a process and my stomach is shrinking but sometimes it's the small things that make you realize your progress!! I'm noticing I feel better, have more energy, and am more comfortable with limiting myself.  So maybe the next thing will be fitting into those jeans I've been wishful thinking of.  

Saturday, February 4, 2012

Once Was Weak

Been thinkin' a lot about self control lately.  Ugh...I don't have any. As a super impulsive creature, I can't help but think that my happiest memories are those in which I just let loose to live a little. Problem: that is my reality.  


Where to begin? Well, society says the first step is admitting you have a problem, right? Hi. My name is Tracie and I'm a chubby, lazy, lover of fast food.  I think it's finally time I do take control of my flaws and start caring more about my health, appearance, vitality. :) Never too late to start right? 


Sooo expect the next few blogs to be about my changes in activity level, eating habits, and thoughts regarding my own self worth.  I'm beginning weight watchers online and taking it seriously.  Whether or not I keep it up is the hard part. Welcome to Life.